So, how was everyone’s weekend? What did you do for Valentine’s Day?
I auditioned for The Voice.
So, a few weeks ago I wrote a post about how I was going to audition for a vocal talent company. I was really nervous and was hoping that everything would be alright.
Well, Saturday morning I got up at 5 AM and prepared to make the 3 hour drive to the city where the auditions were being held. Thankfully, my mom was going to take me. I really didn’t want to go by myself.
Around 12 noon, we pulled into the city and hit a lot of traffic. Apparently, everyone else in my area was doing the same thing I was.
When we reached the building where the auditions were being held, I noticed a line of people around the outside of the building. We both realized that the line was for the auditions. I couldn’t believe how many people had turned up for this.
Well, my mom dropped me off and I got in line.
For two hours.
In the cold.
Needless to say, I really thought my vocal chords would be shot by the time I got in doors.
Finally, I got to the door and went inside. My feet started to thaw out and I didn’t feel like icicles were handing off my nose anymore. We went up two flights of steps, only to discover that we had to wait in line again.
So we formed three different lines, to be searched for weapons or anything harmful, and waited.
For an hour.
After they checked my paper again, along with my i.d., we were ushered up another flight of stairs to wait in yet another line. This one moved along fairly quickly.
At this point, I had been standing for three solid hours. My feet, legs, back, and head were throbbing.
At the end of the line, I had my paper checked again, got a wrist band, and was taken to a seat. You never realize how much you take things for granted until you’re deprived of them. I sat in that seat and felt like a million dollars.
However, my joy was short lived. I had forgotten to pack anything to eat and by now it was after 5 o’clock. I was also low on water, so I did the unthinkable ( for me anyway ); I filled it up at the public water fountain. Only fear of fainting and dehydration are what motivated me to commit this rash act.
I sat back in my seat and waited for another two hours. By this time, any nervous feelings I might have had were long gone and I just wanted to sing and get out of there.
Finally, we were ushered into a small room and told we would be waiting another thirty minutes and then we would audition. Well, I started to get excited. This was it. I had been waiting for it for so long.
We sat there and watched as groups of ten were taken from the room to go and audition in front of the judges.
My row was called. We filed into the room and sat opposite each other, five facing five. The judge was really nice and explained what he wanted us to do. He shuffled our papers around and began calling names.
Mine was the fifth one called.
I slowly stood, walked to the piece of green tape on the floor, stated what I was going to sing, and then froze.
I had completely forgotten the words. I nervously laughed and explained my hesitation. He smiled and said that was alright and to begin when ready.
Well, I finally remembered the words and started singing. It was like it wasn’t me. I felt like someone else was singing through me. I know God was with me through that entire audition. My legs were shaking, my voice kept wanting to crack, I honestly thought I was going to cry and I couldn’t look the man in the face. I kept staring at the windows behind him.
When I finished, I sat down and breathed I think for the first time since beginning.
I had done it. I had finally torn down the wall of fear I had erected around myself. I could sing in front of others and I was ok.
The rest sang their songs, but I couldn’t get over the relief I felt.
In case you were wondering, I didn’t get a call back. But you know what, its ok. I now know what I am capable of and I never have to fear it again. God was with me the entire time and He held my hand through that audition. And even though I didn’t get a call back, I know that this isn’t the end. God didn’t let me get this one because He’s got something better for me. I don’t know how He’ll use my voice, but I have learned through this entire experience that I have to completely trust Him to know what is the best thing for me.
Was it a long and arduous day? Yes. Would I do it again? In a heart beat. It was a wonderful experience and I’m really glad to see how these things work. And maybe next time, things will work out. Trust is something I’m slowly learning.
If you got through all that reading, you deserve an award. Thanks for all your encouragement and for reading my blog. It really means a lot to me.